First and foremost, I bow down at the holy feet of Gurudev Shri Ramlal Ji
Siyag and Dada Gurudev Baba Shri Gangainath Ji Yogi (Brahmaleen).
I (Devendra Kumar Rai) am a resident of village Sonhariyan,
District- Ghazipur. I had a strong desire to attain God from my childhood so
I started looking for an empowered Guru. I got married at the age of 17, but
I used to go to many ashrams due to an intense desire to attain God.
First, I went to Gorakhnath's temple in Gorakhpur.There
Mahant Avaidyanath told me that I will have to ask for alms all my life
after renouncing the world but I did not accept this. So, I went to Ayodhya
to the ashram of Nitya Gopaldas ji Maharaj.
He asked me to do spiritual practice while staying at
home. I started working in the construction and water supply department of
the ashram to look after my family and continued the spiritual practice.
Nearly three years passed but I got no spiritual experience or self
satisfaction so I came back home.
After staying at home for a few years, I went to the ashram
of Swami Ram Nareshcharyaji in Kashi. There I was given mantra initiation
and I was given a new name, Ramdas. After staying in the ashram for a few
days I came to know about the activities of the ashram. I realized that
there is unnecessary politics in the ashram and simple and honest people are
neglected. I stayed there for 2-3 years and found that there is no truth
here. After this I joined ‘Vingam Yoga’. I practiced there too but got no
results. Even after all this, I did not give up and constantly kept looking
for an enlightened empowered Guru.
Later I went to the ashram of Baba Dnyaneshwar, Swami
Sadananda Paramahansa, who calls himself Kalki avatar. There, the seekers
were made to do hard work for many hours in the fields and in construction
works. When they made a mistake, they were beaten with whips and sticks. It
was also said that eating any food from outside the ashram will cause
death - such fear was also shown. And once anyone joined the ashram, he was
not permitted to leave the ashram easily and was beaten fiercely for trying
to leave the ashram. One day I too was beaten with a stick without any
fault, so I decided that no matter what happens, I have to get out of here
as soon as possible and one day I managed to escape from their Haridwar
Ashram and in the fear of getting caught, I walked 14-15 km besides the
After this I reached home via Varanasi and heaved a sigh of
relief. I told my family that I cannot eat the food as I had a fear of
death. Only when my family members convinced me that nothing will happen to
me, then I ate the food. Such was my condition. After some time, it was
found that Baba, who called himself ‘Kalki avatar’, was killed by someone.
It was very disappointing to know that everywhere a goofy business of
looting innocent people in the name of God was going on.
Even after all these events, I did not lose courage and
started looking for empowered Gurudev and this time I reached Adgadanandji's
ashram. Since I was almost 50 and my hair had turned white, the ashram
people said that only young people were allowed to stay at the ashram and
not old people. After this, I decided to do spiritual practice at home but
was always in search of a competent Guru.
Now I was about 56 years of age and I was suffering from
arthritis and suffered a lot while walking. Looking at my past, I see that I
started looking for a real Guru at the age of 17, but I have not been able
to get this good fortune so far, and nearly 39 years have passed.
I went to attend
Kumbh at Ujjain in April-May 2016. There some people were
distributing pamphlets of Siddha Yoga. One of them
told me about Siddha Yoga and its benefits and said that arthritis will also
cured by Siddha Yoga.
After that I reached the Siddha Yoga camp there and
meditated but I took it casually. I reached home with the leaflets
and cards of Siddha Yoga and told my uncle about this matter. My uncle
advised me to watch carefully for a few days and said that if this cures my
arthritis then I should accept Him as my Guru. I said okay.
For about 15 days, I chanted and meditated on Gurudev's
picture in the morning and evening. Then I noticed that my arthritis pain
had completely reduced and now there is no problem in walking. I told this
to everyone in my family. Everyone was very surprised and happy.
I am so grateful to Gurudev by whose grace I got well. I
thought that even when he is so far away and has not met me and without any
medicines or any rituals, only by meditating on his picture and chanting the
mantra, my arthritis got cured in just 15 days, then anything is possible
for such a capable Gurudev. With this I became fully convinced that He is my
empowered Guru whom I had been looking for and He will liberate me.
Now I do regular meditation and chanting. I experience
bliss. Now it is my resolve that I will be in the service of Gurudev for